I am at a social gathering; a crowded chaotic gathering. I am surrounded by many people; people engrossed in conversations, sipping drinks, smiling and nodding. I am right there, in the middle of all jibber-jabber, smiling and nodding along, abiding by the social convention. And there it is - the unfathomable void within. This space, this very space is so dangerously empty that no amount of people or conversations can ever fill it. I am not sure what is it exactly supposed to be filled with. I am not even sure if it is a good or bad space. I just feel the void.
Don't get me wrong. I am not a lunatic. I am quite extrovert and I do have a lot of friends and a huge family. I am (forced-to-be) materialistic at times as well. So I have had attempted to solve this mystery or so-called 'issue'. Sometimes, I speak my mind out. I look these people in the eye, and I speak! Only to realize that we are on completely different pages and they don't quite understand me. I cannot blame them. With their honest effort, they think they do understand me and so I let them. Other times, I do not feel like framing words at all (I think some emotions are beyond words) albeit I still feel the need to be heard. Is that inconceivable?
Beyond language, is there another way to connect? Perhaps astral or karmic? If there really are fragmented souls, is there a part of my soul somewhere that can feel what I feel? Isn't a tiny possibility of being-able-to-connect-effortlessly exciting?
Do you feel it? Do you feel the void?
If there's any kind of magic in this world it must be in the attempt of understanding someone sharing something. I know, its almost impossible to succeed but who cares really? The answer must be in the attempt ~Before Sunrise
Don't get me wrong. I am not a lunatic. I am quite extrovert and I do have a lot of friends and a huge family. I am (forced-to-be) materialistic at times as well. So I have had attempted to solve this mystery or so-called 'issue'. Sometimes, I speak my mind out. I look these people in the eye, and I speak! Only to realize that we are on completely different pages and they don't quite understand me. I cannot blame them. With their honest effort, they think they do understand me and so I let them. Other times, I do not feel like framing words at all (I think some emotions are beyond words) albeit I still feel the need to be heard. Is that inconceivable?
Beyond language, is there another way to connect? Perhaps astral or karmic? If there really are fragmented souls, is there a part of my soul somewhere that can feel what I feel? Isn't a tiny possibility of being-able-to-connect-effortlessly exciting?
Do you feel it? Do you feel the void?
If there's any kind of magic in this world it must be in the attempt of understanding someone sharing something. I know, its almost impossible to succeed but who cares really? The answer must be in the attempt ~Before Sunrise
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